Ann Coulter

why?…i just don’t get her purpose….she brings nothing to the debate except vile and hatetred…..but the networks give her a platform to spew her venom..

is it ratings?, a deal with satan himself?….she crawls on to our screens every few months when she has product to sell….says something hateful, biggoted, and factually inaccurate….it creates a firestom….she plays the victum of the “liberal press”…she sells books….crawls back under her rock…..

lets put an end to it…..let the networks know we don’t want to hear her…she can get a crate and spew her vile from a street corner…call, write, complain….if not she’ll never go away……

 there’s a vile word to describe a female that is sadly a perfect word to describe her….you know the word, it begins with a “C”….i would never say this word, but it feels appropriate to use in describing this woman…………….

 CUNT……..

Paris Hilton on Larry King

i knew it!, she’ll never go away.  why oh why do people care about this useless girl?

go to jail….more popular….what’s next?

these useless twats like her and lindsey “i’ll go to vacation rehab” lohan are so friggin annoying…..

but then you see their parents and you realize they were fucked from the begining…..sadly even one of them dying of an overdose or dui accident wouldn’t stop people from wanting to hear about them.

the media really believes we want this and sadly there is a small group, who buy tons of trash mags, that do, but i still believe there are more that don’t….

i’d comment on larry king but he’s becoming increasingly irrelevent…..thank god my grandma isn’t around to see her favorite  become a cartoon parody of himself…

Bill O’Reilly

is probably the most dangerous man in america and the most unpatriotic as well……he’s decided that dead slodiers and covering the death and destruction in iraq is not relevant or worthy of his air time…..what is?

body language experts, bears, sex in your sleep, pop culture quizes, and a hole assortment of other mind numbing issues….distract distract….

i wonder if the war was going well would he bost about that daily, i’m sure he would….he says the media elite never report the good, well neither does he or his faux news cohorts….maybe because the good is so miniscule that it would seem forced.

i hope this is the end of his kind, the coulters, hannity’s, and all the other hate mongers that pollute our airwaves……i wish all the people that watch, not because they like him but because they hate him would stop…then we’d get a real view on his popularity.

sadly, if he left us tomorrow, i’d never feel any loss……….

Disjointed Ramblings

went shopping today…outlet stores…gap–banana republic—felt good.  who says shopping doesn’t make you happy….i smiled….3 pants, 5 shirts….$110…smile

yesterday i finished my endless hoop jumping to maybe become a volunteer at a local hospital….harder than applying at the CIA…..the director, or dictator, has this attitude like she’s trying to discourage you from applying……almost used the “c” word with her but bit my tongue…..maybe a letter to the board and some local nespapers are in order….i may sound mentally challenged, but i’m not……

my father….never does he listen…his own agenda…..drove my mother nuts…he says, “i’m getting old, i don’t comprehend as well”….you never did….out to lunch for father’s day……i’m trying real hard to just accept but it’s  hard….long history of nothingness…..let go already, i tell myself…or maybe it’s my mom channeling through.

my great aunt has severe dementia….i call, she sounds happy….can only answer yes or no questions….my voice is strained, hard to hear……she sounds like she knows who i am, but my  name escapes her…she asks about mom and grandma, her sister, i say they’re fine….i’m sure they are together spiritually…..sad and hard to deal with…the calls less frequent….guilt.

monday i get blood work to make sure the new meds are working….everything says they will…i’m still nervous…i’ve been so lucky…….1 pill a day now, some take over 30 horrible side effects…my side effect, movie like dreams…..my hiv has been surpressed for 8 years straight…..please let the new drug be working….

The Media

has lost any respect they with the paris hilton coverage…not like they had much to begin with…why in god’s name do these people like paris, anna nicole dominate the supposed real news channels?

i mean we have tons of celebrity rag shows on tv nowadays, leave it there….and i don’t want to hear the argument that….”that’s what the people want”….i don’t know these people who want this crap…do you?

larry king was suppose to have angelena jole’ on but she was pre-empted twice by paris coverage….huh? at least angelina has talent, does tons of humanitarian work, and actually matters…..

is this how the romans began behaving before their fall?…..it’s sickening….will the media get the message that we don’t want this crap served to us anymore?

i wish i could single out one outlet, one pundint, but sadly it was them all…….

Paris Hilton

well, well, well, the poor little rich girl gets to go home….medical condition…yeah fuckin bimboitis……….

i hope and pray that this is the end for her….the public seems to be finally sick and tired of her kind…..faux celebities….useless girls and boys with no contributing value….no redeeming qualites….sadly you know that it isn’t…..but i can dream though…

wall to wall coverage and analysis on the “news” channels….pathetic….because what wasn’t covered was 39 people being secretly detained by the US ……interesting…..

 they truly believe they’re giving us what we want….maybe i’m not a part of us..

Volunteering…..Ross the Intern

who knew that trying to volunteer would be just as hard as getting a job?

i went for a group interview today with my application, 2 references, and a copy of my blood work showing my vaccines are in order, then i have to go for a TB test…thank god i didn’t go to greece last week…lol…then i go for a 2 hour orientation next week…then they decide if they can use me….so after all that, i may not get a spot anyway…jezz….

how much do you love ross the intern?…i can’t explain why, but he puts a smile on my face…his blog has become must read every day……

each night before i go to bed i read/or watch his blog and rosie’s….so every night i go to sleep very happy….no matter how my day was it ends with a smile and a chuckle..

now he and rosie may do a “talky” blog together…i might burst…lol….

to me, anyone who generally makes people happy is a true godsend…..

Another day goes by….

….and i feel another day older….maybe it’s the weather but glummy was my mood all day.  you’d think with the injections easing my tone that i’d be happy..with the prospect of starting volunteering, i’d be glad….in reality my life isn’t half bad, i’m a hell of a lot better off than even a year ago and still improving….so why so glum?

my friend who’s living with us adds to my sadness at times….he came here down on his luck, with almost nothing….my father and i adopted him in and i put him through nursing school, but did we create a spoiled stepchild?

he’s been working full time for roughly a year now making good money, he’s got a handle in his debts, but my debt comes last….i lent him half my savings, but he’s repaying in drips…i guess i need to speak up…..i fell like our friendship is taken for granted as well….like he’s just waiting to leave….but honestly if he paid my money back tomorrow i wouldn’t mind, so i’m as bad…only puting up with it till he pays his debt?…..

sadly, it’s gotten to the point where i’m not sure i’d miss him…..at least not at first…we never hang out anymore….our conversations are trepid, on my side, he seems to get annoyed with the questions…….i guess he is family now..

i’m thinking now that i hope my neurologist can help with my transportation to my appointments as i want to continue to see him….of course now it probably won’t happen….murphy’s law you know….

New Terror Plot

here in the nyc area….blow up jfk airport jet fuel line…..foiled by police, not war….just like all the others….

although these weren’t terrorists from the middle east….from guyana…yes from south america and the carabean…well, we’re good huh?…we’re creating terrorist everywhere…even where we’d never expect….we must be proud..

when will our leaders get it….our military actions are creating more terrorist than we kill….cut off one head and more will grow….

i fear that they will never get it and we will lose everything we have…..

Botox

i got my injections today for my muscle spasticity…..ahh  what a relief…when they calm my arm it affects everything…my mobility, mood, and blood pressure…

getting into mahattan today was the typical nigtmare…10:30 appt, leave at 8am from nj, get there at 10:45………nightmare….then add the minimal $30 in tolls and parking….nightmare

a family friend drives me, even though i’ve been back driving for a year, i still don’t feel comfortable driving myself……but the stress of even being a passenger is too much…

i used to love the city…wanted to live there…no more….you can keep it….NIGHTMARE…

i spoke to my neurologist about how it’s getting more difficult to get into the city and if he could recomend a neurologist in my area…..i thought he’d be disconnected, alouf….no, he looked hurt…dissapointed….he gave me a name but said to call someone there about the hospital paying for transportaion….i took the number, but it doesn’t take away the stress of going…the time….at least 2 hrs regardless….if it’s local , i can drive….less stress….

i have 3 numbers of dr’s in my area that do botox for mobility….the 1 he recomended and 2 i found…..i feel guilty, but it’s too much going  into manhattan, plus what if i have an emergency?…..

why the guilt?…..i feel sad…..